bittersweet sixteen

I may explode if I have to live through one more minute of this engagement. At the same time.. I can NOT believe we are sixteen days away from our wedding. I also hate being engaged.. yet it is the best thing that has ever happened to me. Hmm I think I'm all twisted up! Well I just can't wait until we are finally married and fly off to the beach of our little private island!

Today the cutest little thing happened. Me and Alexander decided to make a delicious dinner of fried chicken. So naturally, we also had corn on the cob to go with it. Well, growing up, we were always sent outside to be messy kids where we were forced to husk the corn and pull off all the furries. I secretly always loved it when my parents made me do this.. it was fun! Sitting on the back patio.. summer sun.. sprinklers and golf cart sounds in the background.. It was just good times. Well tonight when we got back to the house, I did a few things before mindlessly grabbing the corn and taking it to the back porch to get ready for cooking. As I was sitting there, watching my very cute fiance through the sliding glass door, I heard kids playing, my own sprinklers were going, and the feeling of summer finally hit. BUT what was even better than that, was the feeling of my own new life was HAPPENING. It was the first of many times that I will take the corn out to the back porch as a married woman. And in ten years.. I'll make the kids do it. Is this a dumb thing to be excited about? Well probably. But I am. I cannot wait to have my own barbecues.. at my own house! We also hung some things on the walls today.. and now I have my own walls with my own pictures just where i want them. Yep this is crazy.

I'm pretty sure I have nothing on my mind but wedding. I wish it wasn't that way, and I can't WAIT until it's over. Other things really are happening in my life! I have 2 babies on the way to my family and I can't wait! I also have been SEARCHING and searching for a job.. with no success thus far. It's hard when you have to take a week off right after you get hired! School is on my mind a lot too.. I DON'T HAVE A MAJOR ANYMORE. I never thought I would be one of these undecideds! I knew for so long what I wanted to do, and now that I'm ready to start a program.. I can't pick one. Hm. Well please do your share in reminding me that taking a semester off is a terrible idea! Thank you!

Well I had no point to get to in this blog.. I just hadn't done it in a while and it felt needed. Now that I've stayed up late again I'm hungry.. which mean I'll probably end up eating and not getting skinny. oh well.

So very recently, I decided that I'd become a better blogger. Well it hasn't kicked in yet. I think just about all the motivation I've ever had is somewhere inside of me... but unwilling to come out. All I can think about is that I'm moving home in 15 days! Woo hoo! All added together, I have about 23 pages worth of papers to write in the next two weeks. Plus plenty of other tests to study for and projects to finish. Not to mention moving all my junk from Logan to home. I'm not even complaining, I don't really mind. The problem is, the reason I don't care is because none of it is due yet .. which means I haven't done a thing. Well I think I'm going to have a bunch of lazy nights and a few frantic ones for the next few weeks. But I'm happy with that. All my focus is on other things! And most of them don't even have to do with the wedding. I'm just kind of.. restless! Waiting for my Logan life to end I guess. While I've been waiting.. I've decided a lot of things.
First off, I decided that when I get home I'm going to plant a garden. Like a vegetable garden! And I'm truly VERY excited. It will just be great to see something come from my efforts besides a stupid pointless (nearly) transcript. It's going to have CORN, for SURE, because that's still my favorite thing in the summer.. pumpkins, big and little! Tomatoes, and a few other things that I'm not so sure on yet. Of course, I'll be needing help. Luckily my dad is happy that I'm excited to do something that's "actually worthwhile."
Alright so this is kind of a big deal.. yeah it's a big deal. You ready? MMK. So I'm about to get my Associate's Degree (that's not the big deal) when I realized... I HATE FCHD, and I REALLY hate Social Work. Yeah okay so WHAT again am I supposed to do with my life? Yeah I don't know EITHER! All the things I want to do.. for some reason I just feel like I can't! Lately I really want to major in Business.. I just keep wanting to start a business of some sort but of course I have nothing of interest to the rest of the world. Oh and I really want to have a bed & breakfast! That'd be SWEET. I also want to be a Landscape Architect.. which, in case you don't know, doesn't mean I'd be planting trees and grass and telling people where to make little hills and waterfalls. Its more about space.. but I won't go into all that. OR I'd love to be a photographer. That requires skill though :) Well anyway, I need a major and I'm getting the feeling that it's going to be something completely different that Gerontology... but I still love old people. and i always always always will.
So a few days ago I realized that I am going to create the most amazing homemade ice cream recipe known to man. And after I do this, everyone is going to LOVE it. Of course, they'll tell all their friends and family about it, and I'll have no choice but to get rich selling homemade ice cream. That's possible, right? Okay maybe we should register for an ice cream maker. That'd be a good start.
I am even excited to start working again! Of course, I don't have a job yet, or even too many ideas of where to apply. I also know that I'm going to get real busy.. with wedding plans and moving twice and a job and a husband and MORE SCHOOL!? Oh and fun stuff too! Like camping and maybe Disneyland?! BUT.. I'm really excited to get BUSY again. Truly busy. It keeps me from getting lazy. I think I need a hobby. Well, I know I need a hobby. Alex has a MILLION... I don't want mine to be homework and cleaning.. I should probably find one. Preferably one that has the potential to make me a little cash.
So I'm getting married to ALEXANDER in 12 weeks plus 1 day. Wow THAT is crazy. Weeks seem to go by in seconds these days.. and I know it will be even faster when I move home! Yeah I have a lot to do.. and I need to appreciate these days more! Not just being engaged, but being unmarried, living with Chandler.. not having any major financial obligations.. all that stuff! It's all ending in 85 days! Luckily Alex is a very hard worker and Chan will still be my friend :)
Well I realize this is a very random post.. but I needed something to do besides homework because, of course, I just can't do homework until hours before the due date.

Bad Stuff That's Actually Good

Good thing number one:

Double Digits.

Alright, the double digits actually don't start until Thursday.. but I'm just too excited! Our wedding is in 101 days! I can't wait to finally start counting down with smaller numbers, July couldn't come soon enough!


Good thing number two:


Hawaii.


Too bad I'm not invited! JaNae and Heidi, my WB playmates for LIFE, are LEAVING. WHAT?! How can this be?! Leaving West Bountiful!? Yeah that's how I felt. Well, at least they aren't moving to Logan.. or Idaho or, i don't know, Alaska? Yeah my two best friends are smarter than cold weather. Come September, they'll be living in Hawaii and I'll definitely be paying them a visit or two. Not only will they get one heck of an education, they'll be tan and get to meet.. or just watch.. brown boys, all the time. That's the life!

Good thing number three:

Missions.

As much as I love them, sometimes they make me sad. Benny leaves tomorrow! I can't even believe it. I was so excited to have him in the temple when me and Alex get sealed! And Chase too! Sadly.. he'll probably be gone by then also. Well I guess I can't complain about missionary work. I love what they do, and i LOVE that these two boys have worked so hard to get back out into the field. Hooray for missionaries!


Good thing number four:

Wisdom.

Okay, I wanted to make that sound better than it really is, and I think I did. When I say wisdom, I mean teeth! Yes, Wisdom teeth. Ouch! Now this just CAN'T be good. I have three gigantic wisdom teeth just dying to come out, even though I always told them they'd be happy where they are forever! The only good thing about this is that I'm going to get them out before I'm married.. which means, FREE! My sweet sweet parents get to pay for even more before they see me off :) Now I realize that wisdom teeth surgery happens to most of us, but it terrifies me! I'd rather like, break my leg or something. Oh well I guess.



Well, lots of things are changing. My best friends are spreading across the globe like crazy! Luckily, I'll get to be with my BEST best friend forever real soon though. Oh and Chandler will just be in Logan after this summer.. which isn't too bad :) Even though I don't like big changes.. I guess they're good, and I'm excited to see where all this change takes us!

i promise...

I promise to graduate from college, at least twice.

I promise update my curtains, carpet, and couches enough times that my house never feels like some other century.

I promise fall more in love with Alex every. single. day. I also promise to give him a back rub every day for our first year of marriage, but only because i lost that bet :(

I promise to never take pictures of myself in the bathroom mirror, or while I'm driving alone in my car.

I promise to go to the tulip fair next year, and I promise Alex WILL come with me. And he'll like it.

I promise to name my kids names I love... but consider their elementary school years in my decision. I WILL have a daughter named Etta, even if I have to name my son Buck.

I promise to never ever ever take a kissy-face picture, unless it's specifically meant to make fun of kissy-face pictures.

I promise to always live by or in mountains.

I promise I'll still listen to Bob Marley when i'm 83, and my babies will listen to bob marley from the day we CONCEIVE ONE :)

I promise to always be a Bountiful Brave.

I promise to never grow up all the way.

I promise to never stop loving old things, old people, and old ideas.

I promise to always keep up with holiday and family traditions.

I promise to make myself and Alex create a love for Christmas once we have babies so that they won't feel deprived because of their bad-attitude parents.

I promise to get a rocking chair one day very very soon and keep it forever. And if it breaks I will get a new one. And I will get one for Alex and we will always always have rocking chairs to rock in. and eat quesadillas and yell at all the neighbor kids to get off our lawn.

I promise to more than "stay in touch" with my best friends for the rest of my life.

I promise that I will keep my baby blankets until I die.

I promise that all my babies will get baby blankets to love and keep forever.

I promise that I will let my kids wear ugly stuff, like light up shoes, but probably only a few times since I don't really want them to wear ugly stuff.

I promise that my relationship with Alex will always be my number one in life. and if we absolutely have to, we'll take lots of trips to far away places together, just to check up on our relationship.

I promise that I will always feel weird to have unpainted toenails, and I'll be rich enough to get two pedicures every month even when I'm old.

I promise that I will fulfill "My List of Uncommon Things to Do." Including number 12.

I promise that I will always have a crazy-weird love for traffic cones.

I promise to "teach my kids with cows," even if we never have cows.

I promise that I'll try to remember that I promised to do all of these things on May 13th, 2010, 57 days before I marry my love and best friend.

AlexAnder And AlexAndrA mAlovich

Well, it's official! Alex put the beautiful ring on my finger on January 26th, 2010. He did such a good job making me think it wouldn't be for a few weeks.. or even months. I've never been happier, I'm soo excited to marry the LOVE OF MY LIFE. It's amazing to look back on the last few years and see how much has changed. I had no idea that I would marry the blond boy who squeezed on to a cooler next to me in a garage back in June.. or that I could ever be this happy. Even with a blond boy :) In 157 days, I'll be Ali Malovich, and yes, I'll have nearly the same name as my husband.

It's funny, because I think I've been planning my wedding for about the last 10 years, and that's not a joke. I even designed my own wedding dress when I was 12 years old.. I think I might still have those sketches somewhere. I've even known my colors and flowers for a few years. As much fun as I'm having, now that it's time to plan the wedding, I wish I could hand it all to someone else. All I want is for July 9th to come! I'm just so ready for things to change from "my life" to "our life." 157 days!!!

I had a few requests for the proposal story, so hopefully this will work. Last Tuesday, I was sitting in English. It was BORING. I got a call from JaNae, pressed ignore, and told her I was in class. She replied with "Ahhhhhhhhh I have to tell you something! Call me as soon as soon as you get out of class!" When I called her, she didn't really have anything very important to tell me, except that a really cute boy on the SLCC campus had talked to her. I guess that should have been a clue. Anyway, I walked home from class and talked to JaNae the whole way. All of a sudden, she said, "Ah Al I gotta go!" and hung up. The second I hung up the phone, someone ran up behind me and put their hands on my shoulders. I hate being deceived.. so I didn't even turn around. I had no idea these hands belonged to Alex. When he realized I wasn't turning around for him, he did it for me.. and since I am awful at this blogging thing, I don't know how to make the pictures do what I want them to.. so they're just all at the top :) I guess they tell the story themselves. ANYWAY.. I was SO surprised to see Alex, i will never forget that moment! He handed me a homemade bouqet of flowers, got down on his knee, said his very very cute words, and asked me to marry him. I kissed him and hugged him, and then remembered to say yes! I had forgotten about the ring completely.. well for a few seconds at least. He mentioned it and i said "oh yeah! put that on me!" classy right? I think I really confused some random girl walking past us when i ran to show her my ring. It was FREEZING so we went inside and Alexander had filled my room with flowers! i just loved every second of it. He was sweet enough to bring up my best friends, Heidi and JaNae. These guys and Chan were helping him out by watching for me and taking pictures. I didn't even notice them until it was all over! This was definitely the best day EVER. Alex was soo sweet and definitely took my by surprise. It couldn't have been any better!

so this is the new year.. and i don't feel any different

Death cab got it right. One night of celebrations welcoming the new year really doesn't leave a lasting effect. the next day.. i feel just like i did before. somehow though, collectively, there is just a underlying feeling of change after a new year begins. maybe it's the realization of potential. i think the year two thousand and ten holds quite a bit of potential for me. by the way, did i ever tell you that the whole breakup thing didn't last? yep. still completely in love with him.. more to come :)